In Memoriam for Iris CURTIS

Morning darling I hope you are with Geoff and your family so you can be at peace.. I closed my curtains last night as the neighbour opposite can see in so I know I closed them I was tired so settled down at 9.30 I would never go to sleep with the curtains open yet when I woke up at 3am my curtains were open!! Is this a sign from you or is it Julie. It un nerved me.. I would love you to send me a msg if it was you can you do it again please? I miss you love and I think about you every day. Emma comes tomorrow to do the cleaning and she will go to the shop to get me a bottle of wine.. Kieron comes home tomorrow can't wait to see him and I've got a box of wine at his house so he will pop that round for me and I've couple of letter I want him to look at.Are you able to come down here to check on us was the curtains a sign? It could be Julie as you haven't done anything like that in last 20 years it's a puzzle but I know for sure that I closed them as would not go to sleep with curtains open so anyone could see in as I have a lamp on. I hope they do it again if it's you love please do it again. I love you it's always been you love and if you were here we would get married and fly off to Benidorm for 3 weeks.. I need the compensation so I can get a gastric sleeve to lose weight quickly... I want to get rid of my belly. I'm going now but will be back later or tomorrow love you xx

Hello darling hope you're with Geoff and your family I miss you. Finley has gone home I miss him when he goes he's been so good for me he helped with my shopping and put it all away for me and he hoovered up so I gave him an extra fiver and he was pleased with that
I wish you were still here we would be married love and fly off to Benidorm as you love it there. We just need 2 witnesses as its our day our way
I would like you to send positive vibes for me to get a good pay out because my doctor delayed me getting surgical treatment. I would like a good pay out as I've been left with a long term catheter.. I would like to treat my family pay for a gastric sleeve and take Christopher Kerry and Levi and Finley on a caravan holiday they can choose where we go and I want a hold caravan for extra comfort a gold caravan I mean.. Also I need positive vibes to pass driving assessment on 29th January
. I love you and will msg you tomorrow xx

Hello love I've still got my boy Finley we were going to the skate park but it's raining so by time we got there we would be soaked so we haven't gone.. So we've had a chilled out wkend. Finley has caught up with his rest he's always tired by end of week. He was telling me he might go in Royal Marines then he said he will go to officer training college in Devon. He's a clever boy and has a bright future whatever he chooses to do. Will you send me positive vibes for me to get a lump sum please I really need the money as I want to treat family get a gastric sleeve and go on a caravan holiday with Kerry Christopher and Levi and Finley it would do me good and I will enjoy it. Caravan holidays are not cheap anymore but hopefully I will have the money so I will spend some.
I hope I get alot as I've been left with a catheter long term and I've had infections and bypassing which means I wet myself so going out is always a worry
... I've had a call from spinal injuries association and they are taking over providing me with catheter bags. I've run out of them so they have told me they are sending me some but none have come and they didn't give me their contact details so I'm in abit of a panic I don't know what to do. I will be back later or tomorrow I love you xx

Yeah so when I got to hospital they took me to theatre to drain my knee and they put my leg in a full cast and the ambulance took me home to you and you were shocked you bought me grapes and chocolates because you didn't think I was that bad lol.. Our boys are doing well Jimmy is in Thailand he comes home next weeks and Billy has the 3 kids you would love the grandkids love I've got Finley he's up early every morning so I'm letting him have a lie in.. I love him to bits. Levi has bought a car she just needs to pass her test the insurance will be alot as she's only 18 she's got to pass the theory test she failed the first 2 tests.. Corey is not speaking to his mum and ignored her texts so she can't see the baby... I've got my driving test please watch over me and help me read the number plate first of and get through the driving assessment. I really need to pass it love so I can drive a new car as I'm due a new car as I change my car every 3 years which is good. I'm going to buy a wig love.. I've got bald patches in my own hair so Emma our Leannes partner will put it on for me so it's worth as try.. I miss you and the love we shared if the same sex marriage had come in sooner we would have been married years ago. I was meant to be us meeting and I was so happy when we had our boys we used to take them to the woods and down Cleethorpes and we would take them to Skeg we loved our days out.. We had our little family. I still love you and always will xx

Hello love I'm cold this morning and can't get my heating on as thermostat isn't working properly I will keep trying it. I love you and I've just looked at the photo I have of you in Benidorm and your hair is blonde hi lites and looks good.. Finley is fast asleep I'm getting him up at 10.30 were going on the docks to take photos of dock tower and the boats hope security don't stop us going on. And after that we will go to herons to get a pizza could do with aldi to get some ready meals. I think of you every day love and wish you were here I took your death badly because you went too soon and your family blamed me no one spoke to us at your funeral your Stephen came over to us and bought us a drink which was nice of him.. It wasn't my fault I hadn't seen you for 6 days.. You did it your way I don't know why you did it Las you had been out with Joan and your chicken dinner was on the work top of the kitchen.. You knew I still loved you cos I told you when we went camping it's always been you. If you were here we would be married no doubt about that and we would go to Benidorm for 3 weeks and enjoy the sun.. I can't go in the pool cos of the catheter but I could paddle in the sea.. I'm freezing love hope the heating come on next time I try it. We made so many memories like the birth of our boys.. We went in the swashbucle in Cleethorpes one bankholiday and we had Christopher with us and I gave him some money to go on the slots and he didn't come back on time so I went looking for him and I went over on my new sandels and fell over!! Now I had new white trousers on and my knee was bleeding and I hurt my foot.. Christopher said mum I think you have broke your foot.. Got back to you and you said get some tissue out the toilet and clean the wound.. Anyway I went to hospital and I had broke my foot and had to have a cast on.. We did have a good day though.. Can you remember I had a bad knee and was in pain and you said if it's that bad tske yourself to hospital xx