The obituary notice of Anne Maria Goretti OLIVER

Time is going so fast since you left and everyday is a struggle. You were and remain such an important part of our lives and shaped us into who we are. You showed us how to be strong, resilient and most importantly how to love. We always knew that you were at our sides, that against the world you stood by the ones you loved. No matter where life takes us you will always be with us and feeling your loss is just too much sometimes. One of the hardest things to hear is when people say it gets easier with time. Nothing could be further from the truth. We talk about you, we laugh about our time together and we cry because we don't have you. Mam we experienced so much life together, even raising our children together but the greatest thing we experienced was being a mam and a daughter. Being able to tell Brian and the girls about all the years before them brings both joy and sorrow but it's something I'll always do. I know when my time comes you'll be standing waiting for me and that gives me strength to carry on. I just wish you were here and understood how important and loved you were. Miss you every single day and I'll grieve forever until I see you again. Love you mam, Donna, Brian and the girls xxx

Some days mam my heart is so broken I don't think I can take another breath. Feeling your loss everyday is so difficult then there's days like today I just can't breathe. I miss you so much and so does my family, you were so important to us. The heavens gained an angel and we gained broken lives. Love you mam, Donna, Brian and the girls

Another new year means Another year without you and it just breaks our hearts. You were the 1st person I called and not being able to hear your voice is so hard. Tomorrow we face 7 years without you and we can't believe it's been so long. I visit your grave all year but your anniversary is always so hard. I talk to you and tell you about my family and dad, say my prayers and cry. I hate not having you here, being able to talk to you, come for advice, laugh, cry, calm me down, enjoy a cuppa or just get a cuddle. There's A darkness over my soul without you and I can't shift it. I know you wouldn't want that for me but it's true, like the joys being taken from my life. We experienced everything together, we grew together, were mams together, went on holiday together and just faced all life together. You had such a beautiful, kind, loving and forgiving nature and would do anything to help and if anyone hurt you and simple sorry would let you forgive them. So many years that me you and dad spent together before the others were born and I don't think many people can understand the relationship that formed. You really were an exceptional lady and that's why this pain is so deep. In my house we talk about you constantly and remember what you brought to our lives. Crystal is so much like you it's unreal and Savannah remembers everything. Me and Brian talk about how you were a mam to both of us and laugh about some of your ways. The sadness never goes mam and id give my life for 5mins more with you. I know you are at peace and your pain is over but I just want my mam, we all do. You accepted Brian and treated him as your own and you defended him like that too, to you he was your son. I'll be at the cemetery tomorrow and I'll talk away, say my prayers and cry because you are worth remembering, worth appreciating and worth my tears. I wish you would have believed me when I told you how special, beautiful and inspirational you were but best of all you were my mam

Christmas is coming again and the shine is missing from it. It would be around now that you would start sending me shopping to get everything for the kids especially if it meant going to town at the last minute. The decoration conversation would be beginning and you'd be defending the ceiling decorations and the 95 colours you'd have on the tree alone. Advent calendars would have been bought and ate, you never would make the kids wait to have them. You brought the life into Christmas and we certainly had amazing Christmases together. You'd be in that kitchen cooking up a storm and we'd have a huge buffet cause you always said you wanted to enjoy the day with us not be stuck in the kitchen making a dinner. We'd have Christmas dinner on Christmas eve at my house and I'd spend hours making sure it was amazing in fact you used to say it was spectacular, which always made me so proud. Good Lord I miss you, we all do in my home. I've just had my birthday and I'd have given anything just to hold you and hear you tell me you loved me. No matter what life threw at us we always stood together, against anyone. Mam we love you, miss you and talk about you daily. Love you Donna, Brian and the girls xxx

Today is Mother's day and again we'll spend the day talking and remembering you and how important you've always been in our lives. It's so hard not having you here and being able to see you. I remember being a little girl and the silly things we'd do in Carville Gardens, I remember how safe I felt wrapped in your arms. Although you were young when you had me you were always an amazing mam. You used to say we grew together and we did. You were there for every part of my life and you made me feel so special. You taught me to be strong, independent and brave. You taught me to be kind, compassionate and to always defend myself. Then you taught me the most important thing and that was how to be a mam myself. You were there for the girls everyday and truly treated them like your own. You loved having them to yourself and devoting your love and time to them. You treated Brian like your own son and always stood by him. We really were blessed. I can't ever get over the fact you aren't here and my heartbreaks everyday now you aren't here. We'll spend today talking about Princess Diana, fudge the dogs, the Christmas's we had and the joy you brought us. You never understood how special and important you were to us even though we told you often. You never understood how much we relied in you just being here. You never understood how beautiful you were on the inside and out. You never understood that loosing you would break our hearts. There was nothing we wouldn't do for you mam because there was nothing you wouldn't sacrifice for us. We'll tell our stories, look at your photos, watch videos with us on holiday, we'll cry but most importantly we'll remember the kind, loving, forgiving, gentle, strong, brave wonderful lady you were. Watch over us now as you did in life mam. Love you always and forever Donna, Brian and the girls xxx