Up, down, up, down... for weeks I just sat and watched you, Mam. I never took my eyes off you. The room was full of family, but my eyes never left you .Its been four years ago just after 5pm on this day ,my world fell apart.
I didn’t realise how much the impact would shatter me until you were gone. I’ve been lost, empty, and filled with sadness ever since. You were my hero, my best friend, and my mother all in one. Nothing can ever replace you. The way your death affected so many people just goes to show how deeply you were loved.
I don’t know where the last four years have gone, I don’t know where I have been ,I don’t know where I’m going, but this sadness has never left me. You were funny, kind, a sucker for a sob story, and you had a heart of gold. I know you’re up there bossing Edge around and looking down at us thinking pack of lunatics —but we were your lunatics, and you loved us for it.
The sadness in your eyes when you knew it was time will haunt me forever. I know you didn't want to leave us; you knew the pain we’d face because you lived through it when you lost your own mother. But Mam, you eventually found your smile again because of us, and we’ll keep trying to find ours because of you.
Donna M Martin
12/02/2026